How long will it be before I can go to sleep without crying?
Before I stop imagining that I can hear her waking up?
Before a door slams and I don't want to get up to check if it woke her?
Before I can close blinds and curtains in our bedroom noisily again?
Before we open the bathroom door at night and don't close it quickly again in case the light wakes her up?
Before the emptiness in our hearts and arms goes away?
Before the sadness becomes bearable?
How long?
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This blog was created to be the story of a special needs baby and her journey through life. Now it is the journey of her mother coming to terms with her loss.
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- Kendra's mom
- I am Kendra's mom and I maintain 2 blogs, this profile appearing on both. Kendra was and is my little angel. She was born on 23 April 2005 and lived till 24 March 2006. She had Jacobson Syndrome which means that she had a piece of her 11th chromosome missing. Kendra's World is the blog of her life and thereafter. KIDS support group is the blog of the special needs support group which I joined because of her.
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8 comments:
I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you. I will keep you close to my heart.
May your memories of your beautiful girl bring you strength.
I'm crying after reading your post. Still so sorry for what you're going through.
I don't know how long. Probably too long. Probably forever. :(
(((((HUGS)))))
If I could I would take away the pain you feel.If I was closer by I would give you a big hug.
I am so sorry. I've already said it, but I'll keep saying it, because I want you to know that I'm still here listening, just like so many others. My thoughts go out to you every day.
it takes longer than you think you can bear, but the healing comes sooner than you hope it will.
10 days after ben died i wrote up something that when i read it now, i want to cry. it was so raw, so sore. and in it I said the same thing 'when', when will the pain stop.
but it is too soon. i know it feels like forever, and that it will take forever to heal, but it is too soon.
i am sorry my friend, i wish more than any thing that i could take away some of your pain.
life is very unfair. she should be here with you. not away in heaven. even heaven is too far.
sending you all my love
xxx
V,
I cannot even begin to wonder the lengths and depths of your pain. All I can do is wish you peace and send you all the love, energy and support I can. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily.
xx
The mere fact that you are able to write about your feelings is already a good sign. At least you are dealing with those emotions and are able to put them into words. I trust that you and your family will have the strength to see this through. I can't help but wonder how your son is coping with this. My thoughts are with you all and I pray for you every day.
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