Tuesday, March 24, 2009

3 years

Wow, 3 years since our little angel left us. 3 years ago at this time I was still sitting at the hospital, none the wiser about what was in store.

When Kendra went in for her op the previous year in August I carried her through to the theatre. While we were at the door putting on our gowns and slippers to go in we heard someone in an adjoining room being given what was obviously very bad news. Listening to the woman's loud and anguished cries I remember thinking 'God, I hope that never happens to me, poor woman' before the nurses rushed me into the theatre. Little did I know. It is amazing how one thinks back to that moment of being told and of being taken through to the bed where my baby was waiting, barely conscious of all the people staring as we walked past. I don't know why I go back to those days as if it would make it less painful if I relive it or might make it go away. I even feel sorry for the other occupants of the ICU at the time. It was visiting hour and can't have been very pleasant for the visitors. Now, 3 years later and some of the initial raw pain has diminished but it is still there running down my face whenever I think about it.

I have been rather stressed out at work lately which really does not help things. I was supposed to take the whole day off today, but there is just so much to do. Also why I have been slack with doing postings on the blog. Just get so sick of the computer and it is easier to read other people's stories than write down my own. I am stopping work for the day now though and am going to pop in to visit a friend on my way to the memorial park. She is due any day now and her little angel is also resting at the memorial park so she knows some of what is going on with me at the moment.

So, on to some baby news. Baby is 19 weeks along now and all is going well. We went for a foetal assessment at 13 weeks and all measurements are average. Never did average sound so good! It is a boy, much to my son's delight. We have not chosen a name yet but Branston likes Mitchell. I am still undecided. Any ideas? My blood pressure has stabilised, aside from an overnight stay in the hospital when it got a bit high. This baby is taking after his sister as far as activity goes. He is already kicking me to bits and my tummy has grown considerably. I am really not looking forward to the last few months, remembering how uncomfortable I was before. I can't believe how uncomfortable I am already. I have another scan where we check all the organs and do a bunch of measurements on 8 April. I will try and do an update afterwards. Branston is going with as it is in the school holidays. He is very excited.

5 comments:

Tony Elvin-Jensen said...

Hey VM,
Nice to hear all is going well, good luck as you go!
CHeers,
Tony, Kirsten & Carl

Rosepetal said...

Thinking of Kendra. How I wish she was still here.

Omigod I totally missed your pregnancy announcement! Congratulations and hope all goes well.

clarissa said...

Hi V
This post is long overdue. I've meant to put it up for ages now.
I just wanted to say that 3 years later, Kendra is still in our hearts...we will never forget her and all the joy that she brought to you as a family, and us as friends.
May she continue to pray for you, G, B and her new little brother.
She will never be forgotten.
Take care dear friend.
Love, Clarissa & Carl xxx

Lucy said...

Apologies for the delay in posting but as you know I haven't been online, so catching up now... I can't believe it's 3 years already. I was at DMP today to visit. I'm sure all our Angels are always with us but I feel especially closer, when I'm at the memorial park. Think of Kendra often. Love & hugs, me XX

Anonymous said...

happy birthday

luv Annie, Vangie & Raichelle

 
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